WouldntUlike2know 1/17

In class on Thursday, Dr. Rog gave a quick overview of the major themes of postmodernism. From cultural revolutions to technological advances and breakthroughs, he described how each has contributed to the current state of our contemporary culture. But how do these closely relate to me?

Being that I am the daughter of an upper class white family, none of the racial, sexual, or multicultural revolutions had any deep impact on me. Perhaps I am naïve to it but I do not feel that my life has any sense of meaninglessness to it. I am perfectly content and, what’s more, excited with the direction that my life has taken. (Samuel Beckett did not really hit home with me either). What struck me from this class is something that I did not realize until around 3 o’clock Thursday afternoon.

Fear. For the past nineteen years, my fears have been rather trivial. As a 4 year old, I feared what was under my bed. As a nine year old, I feared going to a different school and meeting new friends. In junior high, I feared that I wouldn’t have a date to the winter formal in the schools gym. In high school I feared not getting into the right college. Now, as a college student living in the beautifully safe neighborhood of Winter Park, I feel totally safe walking on campus at night. Sure, everyone hears the stories of young college women being abducted but their scenarios are much different. They were in a sketchy part of NYC and were making stupid decisions. Its terrible to say this but until I realized how quickly events can turn, I felt invincible. (Knock on wood).

Thursday afternoon, I gained some perspective. It was at that time that I received a phone call from my Dr’s. office. They had gotten my routine lab results in and found that I needed to come in for a few more tests. So I went back to have them done. Unfortunately, this test is not “newer, faster, or better” so I am sitting and waiting for at least two weeks to find the results. I have forcibly realized that my previous, content and blissfully ignorant reality “aint what it used to be.”