romulus 4.10

I planned on doing nothing but going to bed early Friday, that was not my reality. A crush of mine that hates speaking on the phone and never calls, called me at approximately 8:30 p.m. We made a plan to hang out, however that was not my reality either. I had cleaned up the apartment and more importantly myself. I had snapped out of the lazy mood that I was in. At 10 p.m. the crush sends a text with his usual 'I'm tired and going to bed please don't be mad'. I replied 'you a**hole, stop pretending that you even want to hang out ever'. This got misinterpreted as 'I'm done with you'. 

The power of words and language can affect bonds formed through emotions. Language although universal, reflects the uniqueness of each individual. In this scenario, I see nothing wrong in the way in which I expressed myself. My disappointment and frustration with him and the situation was evident. I did not understand why his reply to my last text was, 'don't bother trying to make this up tomorrow, if u say ur done with me I'm done with u'. I immediately apologized assuming that calling him a name was the reason behind his anger but it was not. Carefully reading into what he said, I can see that his he is upset. Personally I don't take language seriously enough to ruin a relationship. Actions are supposed to be stronger than words, especially words sent through a text message. This has actually been an eye opening experience.

I realize that things said in text hold as much legitimacy as what is said face to face. It is also difficult to judge the seriousness of what is being said through this once unconventional medium. Texting requires bypassing body language in order to get the message across. As conversations take place they are saved. Technology has become central in maintaining relationships, keeping people subconsciously connected. At least once a month I would send or receive a text from a crush in Switzerland. Although it will be months before we can physically see each other, texting has kept us close. I coin this ear the age of digital dialogue.